Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Hmmm...I wonder...

Yes...it's been several months since I even looked at this blog. Actually....deployment in general has pretty much forced me off the internet except to get those emails from him, and occasionally Skype.

I decided to stop blogging because it was creating a family strife I didn't feel was worth it, especially considering my up coming circumstances. It was more important to me that I had my family support system in tact during this deployment, then it was for me to blog.

I decided to stop going on Facebook because I found that I was more mentally stressed attempting to "keep up" with everyone on there then I was if I just stayed away. So to save what was left of my personal sanity, that's what I did...stayed away.

I now find myself smack dab in the middle of deployment, and all the circumstances and reasons for my exile from the "social" parts of the internet are no longer valid. And I find my self wondering if I am actually ready to try this again.

Even as I write this, I feel that familiar dread that comes over me before I publish a post...particularly on this blog, which I started to connect with other military wives. What do I have to contribute to this already established close-knit group of women, who have "been there and done that" with any topic of military life I might choose to write about on here?

More over... that same family that caused me to abandon this adventure in blog-land before is still present and will most likely be reading these posts again. What am I risking by attempting to pick up where I left off?

Honestly...I can't answer any of these questions. And I know...neither can you :) So I guess that this is my first tentative step back into a social internet universe. And we'll see how it goes from here!

Wish me luck!

7 thoughts:

Mille said...

I'm so glad you decided to post again.. I personally, love your blog. I hope things go well for you! Wishing the best! <3

Kenyon and Jeannette Petersen said...

Yay! I hope you're dealing with deployment well! You're a better woman than me 'cause I don't know if I could see Kenyon leave for such a long period of time! I'm glad you posted on here 'cause I for some reason can't get to the private blog link you sent me! Also if you're in Utah we could hang out sometime!...if you're up for it?

Poekitten said...

As another submariner's wife, I think any and all Milspouse's experiences are valuable. Not everyone experiences things in the same way...hopefully you can find someone to relate to or someone will relate to you:)

Undaunted ~ My Life One Day at a Time said...

Jen, glad to see you blogging again. As to the dread that you feel, the fact is you contribute to the other military wives by joining your voice with theirs. Your triumphs and failures, you growth and setbacks. You don't know who you might touch with the experiences that you go through.

Who is to say their isn't another mom out there who needs to hear how you cope with you mouthy two year old or the separation anxiety that you have when Erick leaves, either on the boat or out of port.

If you feel that you should write, then write. But remember that not just military wives deal with loss, separation, and heartache. There are those that love you and want to give you support.

Your Heavenly Father knows all your worries. Remember to turn to him and follow what he directs. Have your faith and then go and do. Your a military wife and they are made of tough stuff. :) Find your core and then do what you feel is right.


Jenn said...

Thanks everyone for commenting on my post! I appreciate the support! It's given me a little extra energy to dive into this blogging world again! Thanks so much!

Nana S. said...

Welcome back. I too haave missed you and am happy to see you are blogging again. Love you lots. Nana

Mille said...

Thank you for your sweet comments on mine. It won't let me reply on mine ((weird right?)) anyways, as soon as I seen you had blogged, I came right over to read. ;) I hope your family is doing well and you are also!