Yes...it's been several months since I even looked at this blog. Actually....deployment in general has pretty much forced me off the internet except to get those emails from him, and occasionally Skype.
I decided to stop blogging because it was creating a family strife I didn't feel was worth it, especially considering my up coming circumstances. It was more important to me that I had my family support system in tact during this deployment, then it was for me to blog.
I decided to stop going on Facebook because I found that I was more mentally stressed attempting to "keep up" with everyone on there then I was if I just stayed away. So to save what was left of my personal sanity, that's what I did...stayed away.
I now find myself smack dab in the middle of deployment, and all the circumstances and reasons for my exile from the "social" parts of the internet are no longer valid. And I find my self wondering if I am actually ready to try this again.
Even as I write this, I feel that familiar dread that comes over me before I publish a post...particularly on this blog, which I started to connect with other military wives. What do I have to contribute to this already established close-knit group of women, who have "been there and done that" with any topic of military life I might choose to write about on here?
More over... that same family that caused me to abandon this adventure in blog-land before is still present and will most likely be reading these posts again. What am I risking by attempting to pick up where I left off?
Honestly...I can't answer any of these questions. And I know...neither can you :) So I guess that this is my first tentative step back into a social internet universe. And we'll see how it goes from here!
Wish me luck!
Only your soul can hear what's in my heart
1 month ago