It's official...

Well it's official. I am 29. I have entered my last year in my twenties. Weird. I don't feel 29. Honestly...sometimes at moments I feel like I'm a little girl "playing" house....although never in my wildest imaginations did I "play" that I was a military wife, with two children under the age of 3, and a husband who deployed for 1/2 the year.

Life just evolves...and the next thing you know, those are your challenges, and you are doing something in a millions year you never thought you could do. Things you still don't feel capable of doing...but you do them anyway...

I am strangely anxious ( and by anxious I mean riddled with anxiety) about homecoming. Almost as bad as it was during the load-out period before deployment. Wow, I've spent almost every day of the last 6 months wishing I could be with him, and now it's almost here and  I'm...lol...scared.

My more experienced Navy-wife friends tell me that it's normal. I told Skunky in an email recently, how I was nervous and scared for homecoming and his response was so simple...and so heartwarming it took my breath away;

"You are everything to me!  I cannot let that go or even fade just because of some small worry that might eat me up inside if I focus too hard on it!"

The man is a genius. I don't know how many times various members of my family have told me to "not worry over things you can't control" and yet Skunky is the only one who could say it in a way that made it click.

So...29 is going to be a new year for me. I'm turning over a new leaf, and I'm going to release my worries of what I can't control, and try my darnedest to live IN the moment! Every moment that I have with Skunky, Pollyanna, and Piglet is a blessing that should be treasured! Heavenly Father intended for me to be happy, and not live my life 'focused on worries that might eat me up inside'.


Happy birthday to Me. Happy birthday to me. Happy biiiiiirthday to meeeeee. Happy birthday to ME!

Happy Birthday To Me :)

That's right....today.... is my birthday! :) It's actually been a pretty great day. I think I've decided that little to no celebration is really the way to go once you pass the age of...oh I don't know...25 :) I mean I had my family call me, my husband called me which really was the best of all gifts, plenty of good birthday wishes from friends on facebook. But as far as actually literally celebrating...not so much. I stayed in my pj's all day. Did a few chores, but pretty much just rested. Darling L was a little crazy first thing in the morning, but mellowed out after nap time. It was a really chill relaxing day, and pretty much exactly just what I needed!

Tomorrow is a bit of a different story. I've got a Dr. apt first thing that will include my GBS test. Nothing like getting violated by a large q-tip first thing in the morning. :) And then I'm helping out a good friend by watching her girls in the afternoon for a couple of hours.

Anyway...I'm not nearly so long winded today, I bet that's a bit of a relief for some! :) Just wanted to let everyone know...that after my some what depressing entry a few days ago, all is well in the world of Jen. :)

until next time,
Jen