"The Twighlight Zone"

I can't tell you how many blogs I have read that have some version of " I hate drama..." in there somewhere. Do you think it is just a natural propensity of bloggers? You have to dislike drama, because otherwise you'd make a bad blogger? Perhaps that's true...I think blogging takes a fair amount of introspection, and a knowing of oneself. People who start drama, I feel, typically are too involved in the creation of all that to really delve into themselves that much.

This is one of those " I hate drama" posts. And it's true, I do. I try not to start drama, I try even harder not to be involved in other people's drama. Both Skunky and I feel this way. Except for an occasional rant ( I have been known to have moments of TMI on here ;P) We keep to ourselves. Our business is our own...and we don't really care to know all of  yours either.

This week has felt like an episode straight out of the Twighlight Zone. My kids have been nuts....Piglet is teething like crazy, and all sorts of cranky about it ( Poor guy. I feel for you I do but...really? With the incessant high pitched screaming? ALL DAY? Mommy's brain is seriously about to leak out of her burst eardrums...) And darling Pollyanna...I miss the sweet natured little girl that took your place last week. Can we have her back? Please? Pretty Please?

Add to that some disturbing...but completely incorrect...press about my husbands boat ( both in the paper and on TV) that was enough to give me a near heart attack ( I had no idea that the media could report something so wrong as the honest-to-God's truth! Seriously people, do not believe everything you read/hear!) And then an 'emergency' boat meeting about said media. Of course they didn't tell you that when you got the call about the meeting, so I spent all day wondering what in the crap had gone wrong! Only to get there and be told "don't believe everything you hear/read" ( Duh! Figured that out earlier in the week!)

And to top it all off, tonight...a committee meeting. Now, I signed up to be on this committee when the boys left, knowing I was going to be away for most of the deployment. I figured they wouldn't really need me until the end anyway. The committee chair kept me updated while I was out there, and I have been able to do a few things, but this was my first official meeting. The girls seemed really nice, and very excited about the tasks the committee was assigned. And this is where the drama comes in...apparently there is some bad blood between the committee chair and some former committee members, and I was about to be versed in all of that bad blood, if it wasn't for some other very sweet committee member who change the subject ASAP. ( thank you, you sweet sweet girl!)

The reason this pertains to me was, I had sat with the former committee member at the emergency meeting. I'm gonna give the benefit of the doubt to the committee chair, that perhaps she's trying to 'save' me from all of the trouble she has gone through. What she doesn't know is, this person who she dislikes so much, was one of only two women who befriended me when we first got to the boat over two years ago. She and her husband have been in the Navy a lot longer then Skunky and I, and she has been there to guide me through all of the chaos that comes with being married to a deployed submariner. She has only barely alluded to some difficulties she has had with the committee chair, but has really taken the position of " Jenn, you're a big girl and you can make your own judgments about people." I wish that I could trust the committee chair would do the same, and leave their problems between them.

I'm nervous now, to be involved with the committee, because you know the more I go the harder its going to be to dodge the conversation she so obviously wants to share with me. I would have to stand up and say " Hey, that's my friend , and I don't want to be involved in this" which wouldn't be hard but...lol I'd probably earn myself an enemy. We're SO close to the end it's insane...and I've made it almost the entire deployment without being involved in all of the navy wife drama...can I make it just this last little bit??

Honestly....I don't know. Lets pray that I can. :)

I obviously needed to blog today...

I started blogging about my crazy military life with the Hubs, because...well I needed an outlet! I needed a place where I could talk about all of my feelings ( most of them not so great) about being a basically single parent married to the military. But I also started blogging because I needed to feel a connection with other people who are going through what I'm going through...

Like with everything else ( I REALLY started to get this when I became a mom...) you never really understand a someone's situation unless you've experienced it yourself. And I needed to know that I wasn't crazy...that other women out there are going through the same thing and how in the world do they deal with it?!?

Mil-blogging has really afforded me a great opportunity to read about a lot of really great people from all walks of life. I feel really blessed that so many of you share your life and your stories, because it helps me keep mine in focus.

Anyway...this special moment has been brought to you because of this :


The Annoyed Army Wife has given me this award ( my first one!) and it really came on the most perfect day! I was just complaining to the Hubs last night how I kind of wish more people commented on my blog, and what kind of things does he think I should be writing about for people to be interested and read what I have to say? ( insert blank stare from my better half...I LOVE the man the death, but blogging isn't quite on his radar right now :)) So during my daily nap-time blog reading, I went to catch up with her blog to find this post, and I was touched. Nothing like blog awards to make you feel like snapping yourself out of the pitty party your having and be grateful that at least ONE person who isn't related to you is actually reading your thoughts and caring! ( Which isn't completely true, A Marine's Wife @ FlipFlops and Combat Boots commented on my last entry, and I totally appreciated it! I didn't enter the giveaway though...I'm kind of weird and feel like if I enter too many of those babies then I'm just in this for the prizes ( totally not why I do this), and since I recently just won a new header...you get where I'm going with that:))

ANYWAY ( woooo, this is turning out to be a longer post then I planned!) Thank you, Annoyed Army Wife, bet you didn't realize you were gonna make some poor Navy wife's day, did ya? :)

Here are the rest of the award rules: The rules for this award are simple. I have to thank the awesome person who gave it to you (check!), list 3 things I love about myself ( one moment please), and pass it along to 5 other people. ( that's going to be tough...)

3 things I love about myself...mmmmmm....

1) I've always been able to kind of look at something I want to do and then just...do it. Be it a craft project, or a certain skill I want to learn. I've never really been afraid of failure. I guess I can thank my parent's for that :)
2) I'm a good listener. ( HAHA....kind of hard to know that when on here all I write about it ME. But seriously....I am :))
3) I'm loyal. I think loyalty is something hard to come by these days, when it's easy to change your mind about pretty much anything, and people just kind of accept it. If you're a friend or love one, I've got your back. And you can always count on that.

Alright....five to pass this along to. This is tough for me because I have A LOT of blogs I try to read...and it's rare I can get to them all in one sitting. But here they are...

1) K @ Our Navy Nest
2) Wifey @ Wife of A Sailor
3) Sespi @ And You Never Did Think
4) Bonnie @ The "Sometimes Single" Mom
5) Just Anchored @ The Life Of An ET's Wife

Thanks so much for reading, y'all!! And don't forget to leave some love!

until next time,